Thursday, December 30, 2010


So after several travel fiascos and cracking my tooth in half, I finally made it to Florida Monday morning - only 2 days late.

It has been pretty cold so far. I walked around on the beach yesterday a little bit, but mostly my outdoor activities have included shopping and going to the hot tub. I do wish that it was warmer, but after hearing that it is snowing in Denver, I am a little more okay with the coldness.

Today my uncle, cousin, dad, brother, and myself are going kayaking. I have never been before and I am SUPER excited to go!!!

Sorry for the short update, but I have to go shower! Hope you are all having wonderful holiday seasons!

Wednesday, December 15, 2010

Big, Fun, Scary Adventures 2011

Some of you might know that I spent November writing a novel for National Novel Writing Month. After the month is over, the staff blog about their Big, Fun, Scary Adventures that they will take on in the next year - and invite everyone to come up with their own lists and comment with it. I did not comment, but I think the idea is a great one, and I want to make a list.

So here are my plans for Big, Fun, Scary Adventures in 2011:

  • Lose weight. Do not try to tell me that this is not BIG, FUN, or SCARY. It is all three, and all of you know it.
  • Complete a triathlon with Janel's triathlon group. This is so scary to me. I do not swim well. (I can get in a pool and not drown doing laps, but I have zero form.) I do not bike at all. But Janel is so persuasive, and I met some of the girls who did it last summer and they just loved it. I am already saving for the program, and I will be working out with them from April or May through the race in August. I will not do my regular training during that time - I'll only be running, swimming, and biking.
  • Complete a marathon. I talked to Janel about this - with the Tri in early August, she is confident that I can be ready for a late fall marathon. Provided that I will not be breaking my toe again this summer.
  • Finish my fairy tale manuscript. I've been working on it off and on for two years now. I need to finish it.
  • I feel like this list should have 5 things. Okay - last item - if my choir is singing a piece of music that I love and it has a soprano solo - AUDITION for it. I chickened out this fall, and I wish I hadn't. The girl who got it was okay, but it was far better suited to my voice type.
There's my list! I'm excited.

What are YOUR Big, Fun, Scary Adventures for 2011 going to be? Reply with them here, or make a blog post, and put a link in the comments! I would love to hear what you will tackle in the coming year.

Thursday, December 9, 2010

Ouch, life. Ouch.

Today had a few good spots, but for the most part, it went wrong almost right from the beginning.

Waking up was not so bad. I had an appointment at 9:30, so I got to lay around for an extra 20 minutes, which was nice. Got up and went upstairs to take my shower. I wasn't in the shower for 30 seconds when the whole right side of my back seized up, and continued to spasm for the whole shower, and periodically throughout the day. Not. Fun. It makes driving especially hard, because the slightest twisting to look out side windows caused it to spasm again.

Then, I followed the Google directions to the Dr.'s office I was going to. They got me... in the complete opposite direction than I wanted to go. Called the office, got turned around, stopped to turn on my GPS, and finally got there, at least 20 minutes late for my appointment. They were extremely nice about it, though and still got me in right away.

Okay, this part of the story is good - finally! A few months ago I signed up for Groupon. (Which, side note, is AWESOME.) If you don't know what that is, it's a daily deal thing that is tailored to your city. So about a week after I signed up, there was a Groupon for laser hair removal. I have always wanted this done on my upper lip. I have dark hair, very annoying, and I hate taking care of it. After scouring the internet for info on the office and the doctors, I found nothing but rave reviews. So I went ahead and bought the Groupon - $150 for 6 sessions. Which is something like 90% off. Anyway, my first session was today. Not only did I get my upper lip done, but chins were also part of the package! I have a rogue hair or two on my chin, so I was excited about that too.

Laser hair removal is quite the cool thing, let me tell you. The actual process took all of three minutes. She did my chin first, and I didn't feel anything the first 5 or 6 pulses. When she got to my one rogue hair that was there it hurt a little, but no biggie. Felt like a tiny pinprick. Then she did my upper lip. These ones I definitely felt! I could also see the laser (from behind my protective glasses of course), and I felt very futuristic, or like there was a tiny spaceship warring on my hair. Haha. Truthfully, the actual laser did not really bother me at all. The weirdest part was being able to smell my hair burning! Afterwards, my skin was red and a little swollen, similar to how it would be after waxing, but a little more painful. I iced it on and off all day and it already looks almost back to normal. I have 5 more sessions between now and June, and I'm pumped to see the end result.

Back to the rest of the day.

This afternoon was our monthly board meeting. Not bad, but just a general stressor for me. I don't particularly enjoy taking minutes. As soon as the meeting was over, my boss decided that she wanted to stay for the trustee's meeting which directly follows ours, and told me that I needed to go pick up her daughter from school, get her dinner, and bring her back to the library.


I did not like that. My boss did give me money for it, and I do know her daughter pretty well by now. But still. It's the principle of the thing. If you want to stay for a meeting, plan for it in advance and get childcare ahead of time. It just irked me to no end.

Then I went and worked out. It was hard, because of my stupid spasming back and we had to modify a handful of exercises so that I didn't die.

And the whole day I just wanted go home, lay down, and cry. Thanks, PMS.

Now I am at home, watching Castle, with my microwave warmy thing on my back. I am so glad today is over. Tomorrow will be much better, especially since it will end with my choir concert at Zoolights, that most of my Denver friends will be at. YAY FRIDAY!

Monday, December 6, 2010

My Old Self vs. My New Self

Yesterday was sooooo not good. I don't know where it came from, but I binged big time yesterday for the first time in a long time. I will not list all the things I ate, because if I read someone else's list, that would be a HUGE trigger for me. So suffice it to say, I ate a lot. I ate until I was uncomfortable, and THAT sucked. I just could not stop. I even made a special trip to the store. It has been MONTHS since I've done that. I still haven't figured out what was going on with me!!

I have been consistently on my meds for over a month now, which is awesome. They are a huge help in me not bingeing on a regular basis. Which makes yesterday even more strange.

I felt so incredibly sick and guilty last night.

This morning I woke up and thought about yesterday. It sucked. I did not like it.

So I climbed back up on the wagon and dusted myself off. I ate within my calories all day today, and after work, I hit the gym for a sweaty 40 minutes on the elliptical. And believe it or not, I LOVED that time working out. My body felt spectacular both during and after my workout. I cannot tell you how much better today made me feel.

I was not myself yesterday. I was my old self, and that person doesn't surface very often anymore.

While I know who I was before played a huge part in who I am today, we are no longer the same. I will acknowledge that part of myself, and I will be grateful for the experiences I had and the things I learned during that time... but I'm not going to let it run the show. Not anymore.