Sunday, January 31, 2010

what a nice day

It was very nice outside today. Kind of chilly, but sunny, and a little breezy. I very much enjoyed a four mile run this morning. I saw a couple dozen other runners on my run, and it was fun to share nods and "good morning"s. That kind of thing doesn't happen on a treadmill.

I got my calendar out and figured out that I am going to be starting my official 1/2 Marathon training on February 22nd. So I have a few more weeks to make sure I have a solid milage base. I think I'm doing pretty well, though! I am going to be using Hal Higdon's Intermediate training program.

I also went to the grocery store, and I'm about to leave for church. The dreaded room cleaning will happen after that. I am very good at procrastinating, no?

Saturday, January 30, 2010


I don't normally post twice in one day. But this was too momentous to pass up. I have 50 followers!!! When I started this journey in September, I had no idea that I would find so many wonderful people on the same journey. I have had such a great time getting to know you all, and I never imagined I would have 50 followers! Thank you for reading my blog!

Day update: I did not clean my room today. I spent most of the day after the Farmers Market in bed, watching Hulu and reading my new ReadyMade. I feel rested, and ready to go again. Tomorrow I'm planning a run, grocery shopping, cleaning, and church. Tonight, I am finishing up watching Dr. Horrible's Sing Along Blog for the umpteenth time, and then probably reading a bit and going to bed.

Hope you are all having great weekends!

Farmers Market

I went to the Farmers Market this morning. It wasn't very big, but it was still so awesome. I tried lots of free samples, my favorite being a goat cheese. I got a lot of stuff, some of which is kind of high in calories but so dang rich you wouldn't want to eat more than half a serving anyway.

Like all natural raspberry yogurt. It is practically cheese. 140 calories for 4 ounces, but I had a couple bites and I was done. Delicious. Will last me a few days, at least. So, so rich.

I also got a giant pretzel, which I have eaten maybe 1/5 of. The rest is in the cupboard waiting.

I got a loaf of Asiago-Basil bread, which I had my housemate cut up and leave on the counter. So that one I will get lots of help eating. It will be gone by tomorrow, haha.

Then I got homemade 4 cheese and spinach ravioli. It is frozen though, and all mine!!! Probably will not share that one. I believe that one is 260 calories for four ravioli. So if I made that with some grilled chicken and a little bit of marinara sauce, that will be a pretty decent dinner. Maybe also with some veggies. Can't wait.

The rest of the day today I will probably spend cleaning my room and doing laundry, because I didn't finish last weekend and I have had no time. It is beautiful out, so I may open my window for a little while and let some fresh air in.

Friday, January 29, 2010

I sure do love a good weigh in.

Starting Weight: 250.3
Last Week's Weight: 217

This Week's Weight: 215

Two pounds, awesome!!! I have been working out like a crazy person this week, and it has paid off! My eating was not so hot, I probably would have lost more if I had kept it in check. I will be better this week. Since I lost 2 pounds and passed 215.3, that means I get my new badge from HYC!

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Two weeks in a row! Unless I get the flu though, I highly doubt I would make 40 pounds next week. So two weeks in a row works for me.

Speaking of 40 pounds, I am so close! 5 pounds! I hope I can get it within the next two weeks, but it may take three. I am so ready for my trip to Sephora. I love giving myself rewards.

What do you use as rewards for yourself? In your weight loss journey, or just in day to day life when you complete something big?

Wednesday, January 27, 2010

The never ending week... but I PR'ed at the gym!

Yes, it is that time of year for those of us who work at my childcare center. It is parent teacher conference week. My boss actually told me I had to take a 2 hour break tomorrow and I couldn't come in until 11 on Friday. Or I would go over 40 hours. I have been coming in crazy early, and since I'm a closer, I still have to stay til 6. There is just a lot of running around and covering each other since we need to keep ratio, but teachers are having to duck out all day to do conferences. My last two are first thing in the morning tomorrow, so yay! Then I will be done and stress free.

Despite being at work so early, I have been killing it at the gym at night after work. (Yes. I come in at 8 and don't leave until 7:30. Basically, I live at the Y.) So far I have worked out every day this week, and the plan is to see that through until Friday. Tonight though, was kind of a notable night.

I started my workout the same way I always do. Half an hour on the elliptical. Then I hopped on a treadmill. I decided to do 5K, since I had the time. But I also thought "oh, why not do these three miles as speedwork?", probably because I am a crazy person. So here is how it went:

1 minute at 3.0 mph to warm up

3 minutes at 4.3
5 minutes at 4.5
2 minutes at 5.0

Then my last ten minutes or so I got ALL kinds of more crazy and extended my 5.0 mph for another minute. That is a 12 minute mile pace! That is really fast for me! At my slowest, 4.3 mph, I was slightly under a 14 minute pace. I was running at a 14 minute pace in order to catch my breath! This is a great accomplishment for me. For 5K tonight, my time was 40:32. Which is totally a PR for me, in all the official or unofficial 5Ks I have done over the past couple years.

Next goals:
  • Get my 5K time in the 30s. I'm pretty sure I can knock 33 seconds off my time within a couple weeks.
  • Work my way up to being able to sustain 5.0 mph for the whole 5K.
So that was my night at the gym. My face was beet red by the time I finished. I am still feeling it in my legs, and even a little bit in my arms. And it hurts sooooo good.

Even though my workouts have been spot on, my eating today was utter crap. I started the day well, but then we had a potluck at work for a coworker who is retiring, and I ate a lot of stuff I didn't need. Overeating is a lot easier these days... it doesn't take nearly the amount of food that it used to. I'm glad I had the gym after work.

I'm sure I had more that I wanted to post on, but I am completely out of energy. Goodnight, blogland!

Sunday, January 24, 2010

Reader request

I realize that I don't really talk about food nearly as much as I do exercise these days. For the moment, I am not officially counting calories, but I do try to keep a rough total going in my mind each day. Mostly I'm just trying to eat healthier, eat less, and exercise lots.

I have received a request from a reader to post some on what I do about cravings. So here goes. I have several strategies, some of which obviously work better than others.

Strategy 1: EAT whatever food it is that I am craving. This is okay if I am craving a red pear. (I had like 4 this week, SO GOOD.) This is not okay if I am craving cookies. Because then I will want to eat like 8 at a time. My housemate Caroline made delicious cookies this week. I know this because I have eaten 5 of them. This did not work out so well for me this week. However, I certainly did not eat all 5 at one time. Whew.

Strategy 2: Eat something similar to what I want but that is lower in calories. If I have a craving for pizza, I get Lean Pocket pizzas and have one. These are much better for killing cravings than Lean Cuisine. Lean Cuisine pizzas suck compared to Lean Pockets. Sometimes I crave chocolate. Let's face it, who doesn't? I have been mostly good about this. I have one of two things: A fudgesicle, or hot cocoa. I have 40 calorie fudgesicles and one serving of the cocoa I use is 80 calories. Two great options for chocolate that are both under 100 calories. If it is just something sweet in general that I am craving, I have been loving the sugar free Jello pudding cups. I don't usually crave salty things, but when I do rice cakes are good, or a few Triscuts with hummus.

Strategy 3: Do something else until the craving goes away. I am still working on this one. I'm not very good, I would usually rather eat the food. Obviously. But I am working on it. You could take a walk, or read a book, or look up healthy recipes online to make for dinner. You could play Boggle with your housemates or family. You could journal or create a piece of art. You could listen to songs that inspire you and give you hope. Here is one called Fight Another Day from my newest favorite artist, Brandon Heath:

I am in no way perfect when it comes to food. Sometimes I have Frosted Mini Wheats for breakfast. Sometimes I go to Einstein's for lunch. Sometimes I don't eat any vegetables all day. Sometimes I eat 5 cookies.

But the majority of the time... I'm doing okay. I know I'm not perfect, and I can never expect to be. In any aspect of my life. Isn't that a relief? I am doing the best I can, every day. And it seems to be working. For now anyway.

I hope this was a helpful post. What do you do to address your cravings? Let me know, I can always use new ideas!!!

Oh! And if you ever want to ask me something, or think of something you would like me to write about, feel free to ask. You can also always email me at

Saturday, January 23, 2010

A smattering of thoughts.

Today I woke up at 5:45. WHY, body, WHY!?!?! One possible reason could be the Wellbutrin, as insomnia is one of the side effects. I couldn't go back to sleep until about 8, and then I slept until almost 11. So that was a big waste of my morning. Also, I have a bit of a cold. By far not the worst cold ever (that was in September!), but annoying enough. So far it hasn't stopped me from working out, and that is really all I care about. Despite my late start, I still got some quality Hulu time in, and I'm all caught up on some of my favorite shows. (Burn Notice, Parks and Rec, Bones.) I am in the process of doing like 6 loads of laundry.

I finally figured out how to pay my student loans online using money from my AmeriCorps award. Took me long enough, eh? It is actually really easy and I am happy to have started paying so I quit getting annoying mail demanding my money. This has been a huge stressor to me, and I'm glad I finally sat down and got it all worked out. I feel dumb for not doing this in November.

Even though I have now lost 33(.3!) pounds, I still feel like I don't look any different. It is really kind of frustrating. The majority of my clothes still fit fine. Which probably actually means my clothes may have been too small for me to be wearing before, hahaha. On a whim, I took out a sundress that I bought last summer and tried it on. Wow. It was big on me! Last summer when I wore it, I didn't have a whole lot of breathing room. Now the dress kind of hangs off me. It looks huge. So I guess I really am changing, even if I am having a hard time seeing the difference.

I really need to pluck my eyebrows. Even better, I need to find a place to get them threaded.

That is all. Happy Saturday!

Friday, January 22, 2010

You know what Friday means...

Whoo-hoo finally another Friday Stats post! I know we have been waiting a long time. So let's get right to it.

Starting Weight: 250.3
Last Weigh In: 222

This Week's Weight: 217

HOW AWESOME. It took me three weeks to lose 5 pounds. I'm very excited to be in the teens. I literally can't remember the last time I was in the teens. Or anything lower than that. Since I have passed the 220.3 mark, that means I get a new badge for my page:

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Yay! I am really hoping to lose 2 pounds this week and get the 35 badge. But I will not be disappointed if I don't... I will get there. In time.

Okay, so all in all, I have lost 33.3 pounds! What a fun number. That is exactly 1/3 of my goal of 100 pounds!

I did promise you some more stats in yesterday's post. So here it is. Last April, I took some measurements and posted them on SparkPeople, where I am still a member, but not really active. Tooooo much going on over there. Anyway, I am going to post those measurements and then take them again and compare!

  • Waist. Then: 47.5 Now: 40 (-7.5 inches)
  • Hips. Then: 55 Now: 49 (-6 inches)
  • Neck. Then: 14 Now: 14 I guess I don't have a very fat neck.
  • Calf. Then: 17 Now: 16 (-1 inch)
  • Thigh. Then: 29 Now: 27 (-2 inches)
Well, that was fun. Maybe we'll do that again in a couple months.

And that's it for Friday Stats this week. We are back on the normal schedule now, so unless I plateau again, you can expect my updates to be weekly again.

Does anyone have fun plans for the weekend? I am going to be catching up on my TV shows on Hulu, doing tons of laundry, and probably going for walks or runs outside. I may also go dress shopping and start that whole process. Whatever you are doing, I hope it is fun and relaxing. Happy Friday!

Thursday, January 21, 2010

Oatmeal, I think we are finally friends.

Today I actually looked forward to making my bowl of oatmeal. After four bowls, I finally got the water and microwave time right: 3/4 cup water, 1 minute 27 seconds. Very specific, but it makes it perfect for me! Yum yum yum.

So talking to my friend last night was awesome! We reminisced, talked about how bad we were at using the phone, and made a pact to talk at least every couple weeks. We also talked about her wedding! I am SUPER pumped for my dress. The coolest thing is that we get to pick out our own styles. Our only requirements are that the dress is tea length, and sangria colored with a pearl pink accent. (From David's Bridal.) I did some looking last night online, but I'm going to try to get into a store this weekend and try things on. I am very excited for this.

Also, how excited am I for tomorrow?!?!?! Not only is it FRIDAY, it is also, finally, weeks later, WEIGH IN day!! Now, I have to admit. I cheated a little. Meaning I weighed myself and didn't post it. I will say that I am happy with the results... but you are going to have to come back tomorrow to see what they really are! Plus, I am hoping to have a few extra stats to post. Ooh, how mysterious and intriguing. Come back tomorrow!!!

Wednesday, January 20, 2010


Yeah, so I'm pretty sure that I pulled the muscle in my leg. I iced it last night for awhile and it felt a little better but this morning it is still hurting. Boo.

I also have a phone date for tonight with one of my best friends that I haven't talked to in a loooong time! Since she is two hours ahead of me, I am going to skip my Y workout so we can talk. It is also even more important because she is getting married in July, and I am in her wedding! Hooray! So we have wedding details to discuss and I haven't talked to her in forever (I know, I'm a horrible bridesmaid), so I'm very excited to talk to her. Providing there is time, I am going to try to squeeze in the 30 Day Shred or some yoga.

And that's today. I'm working extra hours for a couple weeks so I can move up to officially full time as soon as possible. Which means I need to get ready for work! Happy Wednesday!

Tuesday, January 19, 2010


Oh man did I ever work out.

As soon as work was over, I threw on my workout clothes and headed across the parking lot to the main building of the Y. I started my workout with my traditional 30 minutes on the elliptical. Piece of cake. (No, really, it was... I might have to start upping my resistance and incline.)

After that was done, I sucked it up and dared to enter the weight room. I remembered how to use most of the upper body machines, so I did quite a bit on those. By the time I was done with upper body, the leg and lower body machines were all being used, and I didn't feel like waiting. So I will do legs/lower body tomorrow. Thanks for all your comments, I am glad to know I am not alone! I am very seriously considering having someone walk me through a weight room orientation. Or stepping it up and actually having a personal training session.

Anyway, back to the workout. After I was done lifting, I went back to the cardio room and jumped on my favorite treadmill. I don't know why it is my favorite, they are all the same. But it is. And to my delight, Biggest Loser had JUST started! There is nothing like running to the sound of a very intense Jillian. Best treadmill workout ever. I warmed up at 2.5 mph for about a minute, and then upped it to 4.0 mph. I ran for 30 minutes, and did a couple 5 minute spurts of 4.5 mph. That is a new record for me!!! I would love to have my average mile time down to 12 minutes (5 mph) before the Half Marathon. I've got a couple months to work on it, so I think it is a doable goal.

And that was it! Now I am home, ridiculously sweaty but no longer sweating, tired, and I think a little sore on my left leg, I may have pulled a muscle. Or bruised it. Eh, it's not too bad right now. The rest of my evening will be spent cooking up some chicken, doing laundry, showering, and watching last week's Biggest Loser on Hulu.

Thanks again for all your support and encouragement!!! It is what is going to get me back in that weight room tomorrow.

I have a confession...

I am intimidated by the weight room at the Y. I really want to start doing the machines in there, but so far I have not been able to talk myself into it. I just stay in the room with the treadmills and ellipticals, where it is safe. The weight room is right by the front door of the Y, and has totally glass walls. Maybe that is why I don't like it.

But I am going to go in there tonight. And do some weights.

And for now I am going to make some oatmeal and maybe an egg for some protein. Yay for breakfast.

Sunday, January 17, 2010

Apparently I am overly hyper.

I just noticed that my last four blog titles ended in exclamation points. Now, I am all for exclaiming. But I had no idea this past week was so exclamation worthy. Tonight's post will be extremely serious to make up for my previous enthusiasm.

Haha, just kidding, like I could ever be extremely serious. I can pull off moderately serious, but not extremely.

So yesterday I pretty much laid in bed all day watching stuff on my computer and napping. No joke. This is what I usually do after working 12 straight days in a row with no break, though. In the evening, I went over to my good friend Holly's house. We had made plans to go for a walk, but it was getting pretty dark by the time I made it over there, so we changed our plans and just walked to the grocery store. We got spinach, strawberries, walnuts, and feta cheese and made the most divine salad I have ever consumed. It didn't even need dressing. I just gobbled it down, it was so good. Oh, and we also got some sparkling pomegranate blueberry lemonade which was delicious. We watched I Love You, Man and then made it a double feature and watched Up. I loved both. I had never seen Up before, it was great. So funny!

Today I was extra busy as well. I went to church in the morning and it was awesome and fun and brutally honest as usual. Then I came home, threw on a sweatshirt, and took a walk. It wasn't so much an exercise walk as it was an "enjoy the warm weather, contemplate on life" sort of walk. After the walk, I had just enough time to make and eat a tuna melt before meeting my friend Tanya at the theater for Avatar. Just as good a third time, but it was definitely my last time until it comes out at the dollar theater. Even better was getting to catch up with Tanya! When I got home I talked to my mom on Facebook and made dinner. Pretty low key. Ended up watching the 1st episode of the new season of Project Runway with my housemates. And it was an excellent ending to the day.

That is all that has been going on here recently. I feel like my new meds are starting to kick in... I like their affect on my brain... but I think they make me feel a little queasy. Maybe that nice side affect will go away.

Saturday, January 16, 2010

Lots o' stuff!

Oatmeal. I have not been known to be a big fan in the past. I would usually much rather have cream of wheat. But at the store yesterday, they were selling the prepackaged, flavored, weight control stuff for less than 2 bucks a box. So I figured I wouldn't lose too much if I didn't like it. But I tried it this morning and it wasn't half bad! I had the brown sugar maple flavor, and I added some raisins to it. It was starting to really congeal towards the end of the bowl, so I think next time I will use a little more water. All in all though, it was pretty tasty. And I feel pretty full right now too, which is good.

Lab results. They were all normal. Sigh. Sometimes I just wish one thing would be abnormal, so that I wouldn't feel so crazy. Ahh well, I am choosing to be happy that I am healthy in that aspect of my life!

Workouts. They have been going really well, actually. I went on Thursday and yesterday after work and got in a couple hour long workouts. I may do my Shred today in a couple hours, but even if I don't, I'm meeting up with my friend Holly for a walk. (And dinner and the movie Up.) I am really starting to look forward to my weigh in next Friday instead of dreading it. I'm also really looking forward to starting training for my Half Marathon. This will be my third, so I know exactly what I'm getting myself into. The best part is that I feel that I am ready to start training. I have been exercising and putting in 4-5 miles a night between the elliptical and treadmill. I figure I need to start training mid-February, so once it gets closer to that date, I will post a training schedule.

Award! I got an award! 100in12 passed on the Beautiful Blogger Award to me! Thanks! So the rules are I have to share 7 things about myself and then pass it on to seven of my fellow bloggers. Here goes!

7 Things, some of which are going to be TMI, so beware:

1. I have recently become obsessed with trapping mice. We have many mice in our house, but none have entered the traps yet. I am going crazy checking the traps as often as I can. Which probably keeps the mice away. But I don't want them to die in there! (They are humane traps.)

2. I adore fantasy books. The vast majority of my books are of the fantasy genre. When I read them, I feel like I am in a different world, and I would usually rather live in the fantasy world than my own. I mean, dragons? Yes, please, I would like one.

3. I have had voluntary, insurance paid for plastic surgery. I had breast reduction surgery a little over two years ago, and to this day, it remains one of the best decisions I have ever made. To not be constantly weighted down, to not be hurting for days after a single workout, is amazing. I no longer have bra lines all over my shoulders, nor do I have a constant backache. Basically, I love my breasts! Hahaha!

4. Some more TMI. I am a happy, proud menstrual cup user. I got a Diva Cup over a year ago, and I have never had better periods than I have since then. No more cramps, leaking, or worrying about my period. No more having to buy (or dispose of) pads and tampons. (I told you this was TMI!) There are other brands besides Diva out there though, so if you get intrigued, be sure to do your research, and check out the LiveJournal Community.

5. I love baking, but cooking always scares me just a little. I am always afraid that I am going to overcook or undercook something, especially when I am cooking meat. I need to get past this though, because my doctor told me to eat more protein and so I have to get comfortable cooking chicken.

6. There is only one thing that I consistently have on me at all times. And that is a hair tie. If I don't have one in my hair, then there is one on my wrist. The only time I don't have one on me is if I am showering. I even sleep with them on my wrist. I am kind of paranoid that I am going to need one and not have it, so I just have them... all the time.

7. Modern art is by far my favorite kind. I took a modern art class in college and it was one of my favorites from all four years. My favorite artist is Jackson Pollack, and I have a print of one of his paintings that I saw when I was in Paris a few years ago.

Whew, that took a long time. Now for the 7 people I am passing this onto.

Enjoy! This is enough of a post for today I think, probably it is more like 3 posts in one. Hope you all have fabulous weekends, especially if they are 3-day weekends!

Thursday, January 14, 2010

Doctor appointment!

I have much to update on, but I really just wanted to let you all know how it went at the doctor's today.

I really lucked out. I recently got new health insurance that allowed me to pick my own doctor. Not knowing any here in my new city, I just picked a practice that was between my house and my work, called, and made an appointment. And I got an awesome doc! I really liked her. She was easy to talk to, and gave me lots of good advice.

I am adding Wellbutrin to my daily dose of Prozac, and will be going in for another appointment in two weeks to assess how it's going. If it is going really well and I'm feeling good, I am going to drop the Prozac and stick with the Wellbutrin.

She also took some blood for tests... checking my thyroid (I have this done at least every year or two, docs are always wanting to test my thyroid), and to see if I am anemic. And something else. This made my arm really sore for a couple hours.

At the pharmacy, I almost had a heart attack when I learned that a month supply of GENERIC Wellbutrin was 222 dollars. YIKES!!!!!!!! The nice pharmacist suggested I get a two week supply since I will be going back to the docs anyway then, so that is what I did. Still freaking expensive, though. I am going to be calling my insurance tomorrow and figuring out exactly what my prescription plan is.

So that was my morning. Work was the same as always, except I got to give breaks in the infant rooms, so I got to hold cute little babies!!! Aww. Then I worked out and came home to a box of mouse traps. Thanks, Amazon! I baited them and set them around the house... just waiting to hear the "snick" of a door closing behind a mouse! It is kind of crazy how excited I am to trap my first mouse!

Wednesday, January 13, 2010


Today at work I found out that I don't need to go to my Wednesday class anymore. YAY! I was taking it to become group leader qualified, but it turns out that one of the classes I took in college was recently added to the list of qualifying courses. Which means, I win! No more Wednesday class, which means MORE Wednesday workout!!!

Tanya and I bought our tickets to see Avatar on Sunday afternoon, which means I can work out Friday after work. And of course I will be working out tomorrow. Tomorrow is going to be a long day, what with the doctor, work, and then working out. I'm ready for it though. And I'll be going to bed earlier tonight so hopefully I will have more energy.

Speaking of going to bed earlier... I am off to shower and then do just that. Also, cranberry pomegranate juice is delicious. The end. =)

Tuesday, January 12, 2010

good day today!

I did better today than I have other days. I am trying really hard to follow the suggestions in the Beck Diet book. So far today I did pretty well. I read my cards, and I ate sitting down. Tomorrow is a new challenge. I also packed a really good lunch, and ate only that for lunch. I enjoyed being able to stick to my plan... I need to remember what it feels like. Cause it feels good.

I'm dying to get back in the gym, my workout on Saturday went really well. But I didn't go yesterday when I could have, today was my night to cook dinner, and tomorrow I have class. So as long as I'm making (and sticking to) plans, here's the plan: gym on Thursday and Saturday. Maybe Friday, if I'm not going to see Avatar with my friend Tanya. I hope I'm going to Avatar though.

Then of course on Thursday I am going to the doctor in the morning, and I am also hoping to meet a camp friend for coffee while she is in Denver. Wow, am I busy this week! I am hoping that I can fully relax on Saturday.

For now, I am watching LOTR 2 Towers with my housemates and enjoying a bellyful of some of the best vegetarian chili I have ever had. Yum yum. Later tonight it's Biggest Loser on Hulu, which is of course last week's episode. Better than no episode at all, though!

How are you all doing this week? Have any especially motivating advice or resources for me??? I hope you are all having good weeks.

Monday, January 11, 2010

good news

I have a doctors appointment for Thursday! I really, and do I ever mean really, need to get my depression meds adjusted. I have for a month or two probably, but since I didn't have insurance last month I couldn't go in until January. And now I have an appointment!!!

I think a lot of my slump has to do with my meds being off and not working as well as they used to. I am physically exhausted all the time these days and my brain just isn't in the game either. So here's hoping I can try something new, because the last thing I want to do is up my Prozac. I am at 20mg right now, and I have read that any more than that can make you gain weight. Noooo thank you. I'm planning on asking about Wellbutrin, as I've heard good things about it. We'll see if it might work for me.

I'm also kind of wondering if I don't have some weird food allergy. I've been freaking myself out reading things about wheat/gluten allergies, but really, it could be anything. I get hives at least once a day usually, and just lots of digestive type cramps and unpleasantness. Hopefully the doctor will have ideas about this too.

I can't wait until Thursday. Yay going to the doctor!!!

Saturday, January 9, 2010

starting to feel better

I even went and worked out this morning. And saw my boss... which was kind of weird, but whatever! I guess it comes with working out at the same facility that I work at!

Anyway, I managed to do my standard workout, which is 30 minutes on the elliptical, and a 5K on the treadmill. I was sooo ready to die by the end of it all, though! I mean, I haven't worked out in about three weeks, so I guess it was pretty impressive that I pulled off doing a full workout. I feel really good now though, and glad I did it. I am going to try to go again on Monday after work. I have to get ready for my half marathon coming up in May!

I think that is all I have for now. Hopefully my next update will not be as boring as this one was, hahaha.

Tuesday, January 5, 2010

Celebration and an Executive Decision

Yesterday marked a very important anniversary, and I didn't blog about it, so I am going to today. One year ago, on January 4th, 2009, I gave up caffeine and soda. It was one of the hardest things I have ever done, and it took about two months before I wasn't craving it all the time.

Looking back, I have not been perfect. It is true that I have not had any soda, though. Sometimes I would stand in front of the fridge at work for five or ten minutes at a time, debating with myself whether or not I should have a Diet Coke, but every single time, I decided not to. Wow, am I proud of that one year later.

I have had caffeine a couple times. The first time, I didn't mean to, and just forgot to say decaf when I was at Starbucks. The other time, a parent of one of the kids I work with brought us coffee and I knew there was caffeine, but drank one anyway. I did learn from these events. I learned that I really don't like or need the caffeine anymore. It made me completely wired both times, and I didn't really like how I felt. A year ago, that much caffeine would have been nothing to my body. Now, it makes me feel jittery and overexcited. I don't really need that in my life.

In the end, I am completely happy with my decision to give these things up. I probably won't have any more soda. The cravings for it still surface from time to time, but I hate to break a streak. Caffeine is a little harder to avoid, but I don't think I will have a problem there either. Most of my favorite drinks can be made decaf, and if I ever decide I want a chai tea latte, I will have it first thing in the morning so that I know I will be able to sleep at night. It's just not an important part of my life anymore, and I couldn't be more happy about that.

Lastly, executive decision time. I have been pretty much plateaued for over a month now, and it is really frustrating. I just started reading the Beck Diet Solution book and I am really getting into it. I think it will help me a lot, along with a couple other books that I have in my reading list. I am committing to doing the activities and exercises in this book.

But I think I need to take a couple weeks off from the scale. I am going to do two Fridays without a weigh in. I am just feeling a lot of internal pressure to weigh a certain amount, and I hate to be obsessed with it. So I am taking a break from weighing in. I am not taking a break from trying to eat healthy. I am still on a break from working out, which I HATE, but I am sick. I know that is a terrible excuse, considering that it is just a cold, but I just hurt all over and have zero energy. As soon as I feel even remotely better, do not fear, I will be hitting the gym oh so hard. (And I cannot wait for that day.)

So that is my life these days. Oh, and I thought of another New Year's Resolution: FINISH A BOOK!!!! I have started so many stories, and I have not finished one yet. I need to crack down on myself and start writing every day. Even if it is only one paragraph.

Friday, January 1, 2010

Stats 'cause it's Friday.

Starting Weight: 250.3
Last Week's Weight: 223.2

This Week's Weight: 222

Well, it is a relief to see a loss again. Even though I have been eating sort of okay, I have done no exercise, so I wasn't expecting a loss. Happy New Year? Hahaha. Even if this was a fluke sort of weigh in, it gives me joy to see the numbers going down. It gives me hope, and a renewed sense of YES, I can do this.

My blog list is filled with more updates than ever! It will take me hours to catch up, but that will be fun. What am I doing for the New Year, you may ask? It is my New Year's Resolution to: Keep on keeping on.

That's it. I may be struggling right now, but there is no way in hell that I am ever giving up. Because that would mean giving up on myself, and I will never be a lost cause.

Books! I bought some. One of the ones I am most excited about is Jillian's Winning By Losing. I am soooo excited to read this, I may start this morning. I love Jillian. Also, my mom bought me two books. One is The Beck Diet Solution, and the other is a book called Shrink Yourself. Both deal with changing how you think about food, and I can surely use that.

So I think that is all I have on the weight loss front. Although, apparently when I when I was home I inspired my parents to try to start living healthier too. My mom even saw a dietician the other day, and learned a lot . (That she passed on to me, hooray!!!) Perhaps she will start a blog? *Hint, hint.*

Lastly, I saw Avatar last night. Stunning. It was the best movie I have ever seen in my life. That right there is a pretty bold statement, but it really truly was. I already bought myself another ticket to go again on Saturday night to the IMAX show. I will probably see it again after that in the coming weeks. I give it infinity stars out of 10. If you haven't seen it, GO. It is well worth the money.

Happy New Year, everyone!