Tuesday, December 29, 2009


I got a new camera. So I have been taking lots of pictures of random things to test it out and figure out how it works. I have not had a camera since, oh July, because sometime after that, it died it's final death. It was an old camera though.

Anyway, I thought I would post some pictures of Trick, my hamster. He is very cute. As you can see:

Trick, stuffing his face.

Running on his wheel while chewing.

Being cute in close up. Or plotting evil plots. You decide.

There you have it, my advanced photography skillz. Actually, I'm not too shabby with a camera, I just haven't had a chance to go anywhere of significance with it yet. I can't wait to take it to the mountains next summer when I am sure we will be going hiking!

Today has not been good, for me. I feel like I'm self sabotaging all the time these days. My head is so not in the game. Part of it is the cold - I have about 5% energy, and I used that all up (plus some) working for 8 hours today. But that doesn't give me any reason to eat like 10 pieces (albeit small) of chocolate at work. Barf.

Okay. The day is not a total waste. I am going to fix myself a healthy dinner and finish the day strong, despite the earlier hours. 1 2 3 GO.

Sunday, December 27, 2009

Stats for the end of the year

Starting Weight: 250.3
Last Week's Weight: 221.6

This Week's Weight: 223.2

So plus 1.6 pounds. I am not happy with that, but I know what I did. I ate a lot of food at home and didn't exercise. I also came down with a cold, but I don't think that is a good justification, haha.

That gives me an overall December gain. Of .4 pounds. It could be a lot worse.

Every day I am realizing more and more that this whole process of losing weight and getting healthy is for life. It's going to take me awhile. I'm okay with that. And to tell the truth, I am really excited to get back into the gym tomorrow night. Unless I am seriously dying from this cold, I will be there. I can't wait.

My friend Kate and I went outlet shopping yesterday and I got a new pair of jeans at Old Navy for $15 bucks. They are a size 16. Did they look good? Oh no. Could I get them buttoned? Yeppers!!! I would consider that a small victory right there.

I do not suggest this strategy unless you are completely dedicated to losing weight beforehand. It will probably not work to kick start a diet if you go and buy your pants too small. You would probably just waste money. But I know that I am in this for good. I did it with my last pair too, my 18s. They were tight when I got them, and now they fit perfectly. I know that perfect fitting 16s are not too far in my future. =)

I am ready for the new year, and for the new challenge of training for my half marathon in May.

I'm excited.

Friday, December 25, 2009

Good Christmas!

So far, Christmas has been pretty great. I was up super early and ended up sitting around with my parents watching TV. We channel surfed for awhile and then finished the first Christmas episode of Bones that we had started earlier in the week. Eventually everyone was awake around 10 or 10:30, and we started opening presents.

I was awesome at guessing what was in each of my stocking presents. I only got like two wrong! Everything was stuff for my kitchen, which is soooooo great. I got rubber scrapers, spoons, teaspoons, a zester, cutting boards, a whisk, cork trivets, pot holders, kitchen shears, wooden tongs, etc. Seriously great presents! I also got a homemade journal from my brother (he learned how to bind books, how sweet is that - it's covered in a blue bandana!), and a Border's giftcard.

Then we all had Christmas breakfast together, which was yum. And now we are getting ready to watch Parks and Recreation, which I got my brother for his birthday. There is some major drama happening, but it doesn't really deal with me so I'm trying not to worry about it. Hopefully everything will resolve soon.

Anyway, I hope you are all having a great holiday, whatever you celebrate. And safe travels if you are traveling!

Wednesday, December 23, 2009

Christmas Eve Eve!

Today has been a long day. First I woke up at 7 so that I could shower. Showered, dried my hair, straightened it, hair products, moisturized. It's quite the process, let me tell you what. But then I looked/smelled/felt good. My friend Sara picked me up a little after 8, and the two of us picked up our friend Ang. Then we went to a delicious little French diner in Detroit for breakfast. I had hot chocolate, which was served in this big bowl, of all crazy things. I only had about half, it was soooo delicious and rich. For breakfast I had a crepe with ham, brie, and raspberry jam. Absolutely heavenly. It sounds like a weird combination, but oh my goodness was it amazing.

Then I came home and made premade cookies that will be eaten for dessert tomorrow night and then sent with my brother on his trip to Florida. This consisted of putting the premade lumps of cookies on a tray, putting some M&Ms on top, and baking. Easy.

Next on the agenda was manicures for my mom and I. LOVE LOVE LOVE. What a great time. I have never had such a wonderful manicure. We were at an Aveda salon, so it was also massage and such. Fun fun fun, and so relaxing. I love the color I picked, it's called Dusk Over Cairo. It's pink with a little bit of orange. Very pretty. And we got to keep our nail polish bottles, so I have lots more with which to redo my nails when these ones get chipped.

We came home after that and I played around online, wrapped all my Christmas presents, and helped get dinner started. It has been a very productive day. I'm looking forward to Christmas Eve tomorrow and of course Christmas Day. I hope you are all doing well this holiday season!!!

Sunday, December 20, 2009

Michigan, another award!

It feels like forever since I've posted... but it was really just two days. I got to Michigan safely yesterday, and have done actually quite a lot so far! Last night we prepared a massive and delicious dinner. My mom and I made roasted potatoes (regular and sweet), two kinds of frittatas, and totally awesome asparagus with turkey wrapped around it tied with a chive. It was pretty fancy, let me tell you what. Also, it was sooooooo tasty. I am going to be making asparagus much more often. My friends Kate, Melissa, and Sara came over for dinner, and then we all watched White Christmas. It was so much fun to see everyone. I can't wait to see them again very soon.

Today I woke up on time... if I was still in Colorado. But since I was in Michigan, it was actually 10 AM. This didn't matter much though. My mom and I made meal plans for the rest of the week and then watched a variety of shows on TV. Now, I don't have TV. We have a TV, but we don't get cable and we don't (yet) have a digital converter box. I'm working on it. Mostly because I'm sick of watching Biggest Loser a week late all the time!

My mom, bless her heart, told me yesterday it was her goal to get me back to Colorado with a loss. She is being so great about getting me healthy foods and being supportive. She even figured out how many calories were in a cup of our favorite family Party Mix recipe. Seriously, how great of a mom is she!?!?! I feel so blessed that she is mine.

The rest of the week includes helping to finish up some Christmas shopping and hanging out with my girls. I pretty much have no other plans besides the obvious Christmas Eve and Christmas Day plans. I am still trying to figure in exercise... I think my plan right now is to go for a walk tomorrow in our neighborhood.

Now, onto the other order of business!

Nicole over at LosingThe40 gave me this award! Now I have two! This one is pretty fun, too. The rules are to list ten things that make me happy and five blogs that make me happy and pass this along to them. How can this not be fun!?!

10 things that make me happy (in no particular order):

  1. Finishing a really hard workout. I love feeling completely exhausted, like jelly. It is so awesome to know that I worked hard and don't have to go back until the next day, haha.
  2. My family. They are fun, loving, supportive, and smart. I love every one of them.
  3. My dwarf hamster, Trick. Even though he tries to bite me once in awhile, he is just so dang cute and has so much energy. He is always doing something that makes me smile.
  4. Reading books. Wow do I love reading a good book. Fantasy books in particular.
  5. Flannel sheets. There is just something so comforting about super soft sheets.
  6. Mountains. One of the many reasons I adore living in Colorado. I could look at the mountains every single day and never get tired of it. They are so beautiful and majestic.
  7. Reality TV. Survivor, Biggest Loser, Diet Tribe, Project Runway. Etc.
  8. Incense. If my room smells awesome, I am happy.
  9. Shopping. Even if I'm only going to the grocery store, I love it. I go nearly every week for my house, and then I go at least once a week to buy myself supplemental groceries. I also enjoy shopping for clothes. I see going to the store as a giant treasure hunt. Love it.
  10. Penguins. I love penguins.
5 blogs that make me happy:
  1. Kate @ Shorter Thoughts, Big Ideas. Kate is my real life BFF, and I love her updates. Longer than a Twitter update, but not so long that it takes an hour to read them. And plenty of useful information and food for thought!
  2. Sheridan @ Real Me Breaking Free. I love Sheridan's honesty and commitment to health. She is doing awesomely, and is just one of my inspirations!
  3. Taylorvillegirl @ Girly Bitz. Her entries just crack me up. Real life, great writing. I am kind of addicted now.
  4. Lindsay @ Lindsay: Under Construction. Lindsay is so dedicated, and I love her positive attitude. Her entries really do make me happy!
  5. Evil Cake Genius @ Gateaux's Cake Log. If I'm not eating cake, at least I can look at beautiful pictures of it, right?
So that is it for tonight. I am still feeling kind of jet lagged, but needed to stay up in order to watch my Netflix DVD so I can send it back tomorrow. Luckily it's Jars of Clay in concert, so I can listen just as well and not need to see. Goodnight, friends!

Friday, December 18, 2009


Starting Weight: 250.3
Last Week's Weight: 222.2

This Week's Weight: 221.6

BOO. I know I can't be too disappointed. A loss is a loss. Even if it is only .6 pounds. But it is just so damn frustrating to lose so little weight in a week.

I know what I need to do. I need to start writing my food down again. Every bite. No matter what. Because when I'm not doing that, I'm just allowing myself to cheat. And I'm not okay with that. I am sabotaging myself. Who wants to do that? Not me. So back to writing I go. Back to my food journal.

I will not have a weigh in next Friday, simply because it is Christmas and I will be at my family home in Michigan. There may be a scale there, but I'm not counting on it to weigh me the same as my scale here does. Plus, who wants to weigh in on Christmas morning? I'd rather not worry about it, thanks. So I will weigh in on Sunday, the 27th, when I am back in my own room with my own scale. I will, however, still do an update on Christmas.

I hope you all have great weekends. I know that I am super excited to go home tomorrow morning. I still have some packing to finish tonight, and then I'll be up around 4:30 to finish tomorrow morning before Holly picks me up at 5:15. Yayyy going home.

Thursday, December 17, 2009


I ate a lot of food at the potluck today. Most of it was not healthy. The carrots were... that's about it.

Then I went to the gym after work. I did half an hour on the elliptical and ran 5K on the treadmill.

Now I am exhausted and kind of sick feeling. Bleh.

When I was running on the treadmill and watching Survivor (I swear, the only thing that gets me to keep running sometimes), something new happened. I started crying a little bit. Like my eyes were leaking of their own accord. I wasn't hurting, well, I mean I wasn't hurting any more than running 3 miles usually makes me hurt. Anyway, I thought that was strange. Maybe it was the fan blowing at me from above my head. Who knows.

Well, I'm going to go take a shower because I haven't since yesterday morning. Then I'm going to start packing for my trip home to Michigan! I am so incredibly excited to go home. Maybe more excited than I have ever been. Hopefully I'll be able to get to the Y a few times while I'm home... good thing I have my Staff pass!

Wednesday, December 16, 2009

Holiday treats: Making them healthier.

Tomorrow is our work potluck. I'm very excited, on account of the fact that I am in love with potlucks. It's always a surprise!

I signed up to bring an appetizer, and decided to do 1-2-3s. If you have never heard of them, you are missing out. The version I have always made in the past has:

1 lb. pork sausage (spicy, sweet, whatever you prefer)
2 cups cheddar cheese
3 cups Bisquick

Tonight though, I tried to make them better. I used:

1.22 lbs. lean turkey sausage (This is just the size that Jennie-O packages, and I figured I would just use it all anyway.)
2 cups 2% reduced fat cheddar cheese
3 cups Heart Healthy Bisquick

Basically what you do is mush everything up together, and once you get all the cheese and Bisquick worked into the sausage, you make little balls, put them on a greased cookie sheet, and bake them for about 15-20 minutes. I made mine kind of small, so they only took about 15 minutes. I got 91 balls out of my ingredients. Then I did some math, and figured out that each ball has about 30 calories. That's not bad for a tasty holiday splurge!

These are one of my absolute favorite hor d'ourves, and I'm pumped that I was able to make them a little bit healthier. They taste delicious, too. (Hey, I had to poison test them, right!?!) Anyway, I'm excited to see how they go over tomorrow at the potluck.

Today was super long because I had a three hour class after work, and then of course I have spent the last hour baking. And tomorrow I am going to work early at 8:30, and will be working out afterwards. So I think it is time for me to say goodnight.

What holiday treats do you enjoy? Have you tried to make them healthier? (Is there even a way to make them healthier?) Let me know if you have any great recipes!!!

Tuesday, December 15, 2009

you are all right.

I realize now that my post yesterday was a lot of whining. Apologies. I guess that ring is just so special because I picked it out for my 21st birthday, and because it makes me feel beautiful and strong. And I can use that these days. I think I will do what my very best friend Kate suggested, and save resizing as a reward for losing 50 pounds. Until then, if I really want to wear it, I can wear it on my middle finger.

Went to the gym after work today, it was pretty great. I did half an hour on the elliptical and then half an hour on the treadmill. I chose the "Random Hill" option on the treadmill, and it was awesome. It made me put in my maximum speed and maximum incline, and then just mixed it up for a half hour in different combinations. It was fun not knowing what was coming up next, and certainly a challenge.

Last night I watched the first half of Titanic. The half with an intact ship. Now I am watching the sad half. But it is still so good.

It's about time for me to go to bed. But that's okay. Tomorrow is pajama day at school, and I'm pumped to wear my penguin pants!!!

Monday, December 14, 2009

Sad day.

I can't wear my favorite ring anymore. It was getting to be so annoying, sliding around my finger all the time. I had to dig through my jewelry collection and finally found a gold colored one with green stone that fits better. It will probably turn my finger green in a day or two. I wish I could wear my high school class ring, but even that is big now.

I bought my usual ring when I was 21. It is white and pink gold with three little diamonds on it. I guess I'm going to need to have it resized... the question is, how long should I wait to do that? I mean, I am not even a third of the way done with this process. If I get it done now, I might have to have it done again somewhere down the road. Have any of you had this problem? I'm really bummed, I love that ring.

Sunday, December 13, 2009

That was a pretty awesome weekend.

Today was just as good as yesterday, but about as different as can be.

I started the day the same way, laying in bed and watching Hulu, but this time I was watching Super Nanny. I did clean my room, get half done with laundry (I have one load done, one in the dryer, and one in the washer), and finish my packing list for going home on Saturday morning. I can't even begin to explain how excited I am to go home. I always am. I completely adore my family, and I will get to see all my best friends who live in Michigan. What could be better?

Once my room was clean, I pretty much laid around watching movies on Netflix until it was time for church. I think my body was really glad for the day off from exercising. I feel really good tonight, kind of refreshed and ready to go for the week ahead. I am hoping to go out for a walk or something in the morning... we'll see how my body handles the morning, I guess.

After church I went to the grocery store. I got:
  • almonds
  • white cheddar rice cakes
  • yogurt
  • Lean Cuisines
  • 1oo calorie packs of pudding
  • deli turkey
  • frozen salmon
  • ground turkey
I already weighed out 4 ounce portions of the ground turkey, put them in ziplocs, and froze them. I used one of the servings for dinner though... cooked it in a pan with some garlic powder and oregano, added spaghetti sauce, and put it on some noodles. I also had a carrot and a glass of milk. Most delicious dinner ever... maybe even better than last night. I guess I should also admit that I had a cookie, and one of my pudding cups. Sigh.

I did, however, resist the cake on the counter that my housemate brought home. I wanted a piece so, so bad. But as I was leaving the kitchen with a glass of water right now, I stopped by the cake, pointed at it, and said (out loud, mind you) "That's right, I don't need you anymore!" I would like to think the cake was depressed just a little bit. I don't feel bad for it.

I feel great for myself. Am I going to have cake in the future? You bet. Cake is delicious. But if I'm going to have cake, it had better be for a darned good reason, not just because it's Sunday night. I used to be able to make up an excuse to eat whatever I wanted. It's hard to break that habit, but very slowly, I am.

Also, sometimes, I feel like I'm still mourning the fact that my life is changing. I miss eating crap all the time... how sad is that? Eating that food tasted good. What wasn't good was the way I felt when I was done, and I don't miss that feeling at all.

I am so proud that I cooked a meal tonight that I really, truly enjoyed. It was seriously delicious. And healthy. Well, except for the fact that I had a cookie AND pudding afterwards. I should have just picked one. Hindsight is 20/20.

Well, I feel like I've rambled enough for one night. This post was kind of just a random collection of thoughts. I'm plugging away at my goal to reach 30 pounds lost by Friday. I'm pumped. =)

Saturday, December 12, 2009

A rather successful day...

if I do say so myself. First I laid in bed all morning catching up on Parks and Rec. If you want to have a good laugh, watch this show. So extremely funny.

Then I got my act together around noon. I made shopping lists, packed a gym bag, and forgot to eat lunch!

The first thing I did after leaving the house was to go Christmas shopping. I am pleased to say that I got it all done! Except of course, for the few things I still have to buy online, but I have a couple days to do that still. Once Christmas shopping was over, I went to Target and bought important things such as hamster food, and stuff to spray on the windows of my car that melt frost.

After all my shopping was done, I went to work out at the Y. By this time I was getting pretty hungry! I did a mile on the treadmill, and then did half an hour on the elliptical. All in all, it was a solid 45 minute workout, and I did three miles between the two machines.

Then I went across the street. I got all of our fruits and veggies at Sunflower Market, and then moved on to King Soopers for the rest of the groceries. I bought a Naked smoothie before I started shopping though, and drank it while I filled my cart with bread, Nutella, peanut butter, and cereal, the staples in our house. Of course there was other food too, but none as important as those things.

I finally made it home about five hours after I first departed. My housemate got there as I was putting groceries away and we ended up making dinner together. We made the last of my freezer burned chicken breasts, but it turns out that soaking them in Roasted Red Pepper salad dressing helps. We also made some broccoli, and a pan of oven fries consisting of one regular potato, and one sweet potato. Let me just say YUM. Great meal all around.

And since then, I've just been sitting around watching Parks and Rec and working on my list of things to pack for when I go home next Saturday for Christmas. Tomorrow holds a lot of room cleaning and laundry, and we all know how much I hate laundry. Wish me luck!

Friday, December 11, 2009

what actually happened today

First things first. In honor of opposite day, I have something to say about one of the comments on my post from this morning.

You are my archnemisis, Jack Sh*t. You are a terrible person, and I hate your blog. I don't even know why I follow it. You haven't done anything to inspire me, and I feel completely insulted by your comment on my blog.

Hatefully yours,

Now back to our regularly scheduled, non-opposite day programming. I did go to the gym after work today, but I didn't get a lot done. I did about half an hour on the treadmill and was starting to hurt (and not in a good hard exercising kind of way) so I stopped. Then I tried some new things, since there were like literally 3 of us in the gym.

First I tried a spin bike with pre-programmed "classes" on it. (Remember, all these machines have TVs, including the spin bikes.) I lasted about 30 seconds. Do any of you spin? If you do, HOW do you do it? Sitting on that seat hurts!!! Do you just eventually go numb? I don't know if spinning is worth it.

Then I tried the stair-treadmill that I mentioned a couple days ago. If my shoes hadn't been untied, I would have stayed on longer. It was actually pretty fun, although really challenging. I will try this again.

I didn't end up going to Beer and Carols. I truly meant to, but I was just so tired after being at work for 9 hours and then working out, that I felt it would be better to stay in. So I took a long hot shower, and now I am watching Love Actually. And that is a good way to spend Friday night, in my book. =)

It's Friday!

That means time for stats.

Starting Weight: 250.3
Last Week's Weight: 223.4

This Week's Weight: 222.2 (-1.2)

So yay! Finally I feel like I am back on the losing track. I have 1.9 pounds to lose to hit my 30 pounds lost mark. So that is my goal for next week. Completely doable. My eating has been kind of all over the place, and I'm still working on getting it under control. But my exercise, however, has been pretty slammin.

Saturday: 3.5 mile run
Tuesday: 5K on the treadmill
Thursday: 30 minutes elliptical, 5K on the treadmill, 20 minutes biking

Yes, I worked out for nearly two hours last night. And it felt sooooooo good. I don't know where I got the energy! But I do know that being able to watch Survivor on my own personal treadmill TV kept me from focusing on how far I still had to run. It also made me ride a bike for 20 minutes, because I needed to see the end of the show, hahaha. I figured out that in order to make bike riding more enjoyable, I needed to up the resistance. With no resistance, everything felt sort of jerky. When I put it at 4 or 5, everything was much more smooth. So maybe I like the bikes after all.

I am pretty thrilled with going to the gym after work. I am going to go again tonight, but probably not for two hours. More like for one hour, and then I'm meeting my housemates at the bar for "Beer and Carols." Fun times on a Friday night. And then I might go on Saturday, too, before grocery shopping. We'll see.

For now, I have to find some breakfast, and maybe take a shower. I am going into work early today, and kind of want to stop at Starbucks on the way... so I'm going to have to hurry!

Tuesday, December 8, 2009

If you had one shot.

The title has nothing to do with this entry, other than the fact that I have been listening to Lose Yourself by Eminem a lot since we listened to it in church on Sunday.

I worked out for the second time this week! Wahoo! Like I said in my previous entry, I did about 3.5 miles in the park. Today I went to the gym after work. And found a present!!!

Well, really, a present for everyone in the Y. We got new exercise equipment today! Like, seriously tricked out. Every machine has it's own TV screen, and you can plug your headphones into the machine and watch whatever you want. They also have iPod docks. And built in fans. NICE. There was a great big sign saying "Merry Fitness!" in the spot where the elliptical machines go, explaining that they would be in tomorrow morning. Dang it. The elliptical is my favorite.

Instead, I snagged myself a treadmill. Now, I am not a fan of treadmills in general. I am part of the population that would rather refer to them as "dreadmills." But this treadmill... this treadmill was heaven. It even had a button for "5K" so it primarily tracked your distance instead of (well, really in addition to) your time. I can't believe I am going to say this, but I really enjoyed running on the treadmill. Not only was it hooked up media wise, it was sturdy. Being a 220-odd pound woman, running on a treadmill would normally mean a lot of extra noise and the whole thing shaking with every step, like I was running through an earthquake or something. But this one was great. Hardly any shaking at all and I listened to my iPod through the treadmill. I can't wait to try the new elliptical machines, probably on Thursday or Friday (I have a new class starting tomorrow).

Anyway, I did 5K on the treadmill, tried a bike, hated it, and left. I'll stick to the treadmills and ellipticals. I am still working up the courage to try the stair machine. I would be the tallest person in the gym! There are actual rotating stairs, like a treadmill, but stairs! I had never seen this before! (Well, other than escalators.)

Okay, that's it for this update. Hope you all are staying warm, it is VERY COLD here where I live. But it is probably still not as cold as Minnesota in February.

Saturday, December 5, 2009

so hungry.

I am working away from home this weekend. And there was supposed to be a volunteer group tonight cooking dinner, but they didn't show up. There are some things in the pantries that I could go eat... canned soup and whatnot. But it just doesn't sound appetizing. I have to stay here all night. I can't leave.

And I am so freaking hungry. I have spent the last hour surfing the web for restaurants in the area that won't make me order $15 of food to deliver it to me. And that also have fairly healthy food. So far, I have come up with nothing. Not even Jimmy John's delivers to me. SAD FACE.

Part of me desperately wants to call the closest Chinese restaurant and order crab cheese wontons and some sweet and sour chicken. This same part would also be happy with a sausage pizza. But there is a new part of me now. And it's telling me that these aren't really the best choices for my body. I am so hungry that I am in danger of severely maiming this new part. It's not that I think these foods are bad, or that if I really wanted them, I couldn't indulge appropriately. It's just that I want to be healthy, and right now, I don't think I could face myself if I let myself order this food. I AM SO HUNGRY WHAT AM I GOING TO DO!?!?!?!?!

Why am I so hungry, you ask? Well, first, I didn't eat lunch. I didn't mean to not each lunch, time just got away from me. Then...

I went for a 3.5 mile run today and it was awweessommmeeee. I think I have finally gotten my exercise back on track. I am hoping I can go out tomorrow again, too. I need to build up my weekly milage a bit before starting training for my half marathon in May. I probably won't start training for that until February, though, so I have awhile to build up my endurance.

Okay, I am done complaining. If you have any ideas for me, let me know. If you know a number I can call for a Lean Cuisine Lasagna delivery service, that would be even better.

Friday, December 4, 2009

Friday Stats: Saw that coming.

Starting Weight: 250.3
Last Week's Weight: 222.8

This Week's Weight: 223.4

To tell you the truth, I'm a little relieved. A .6 pound gain is nothing to get worked up about. Since last week I lost .8 pounds, I would really just call this two weeks of maintenance, haha. I was bound to have a gain sometime, and now I can stop worrying about it. Life goes on.

I did end up going to workout last night at the Y after work. In fact, when I packed my clothes yesterday morning, I was not that excited about going. But I figured if I packed my stuff, I would at least have the option. As the day went on, I found myself actually looking forward to being able to work out. I work with 12 to 18 month olds, and a lot of the time, it's stressful! And that is what I like least about my job. For the last two hours of work last night, I just kept reminding myself that I got to go work out afterwards, and it worked like a charm. I only did half an hour on the elliptical, but it felt great. I am going to go again tonight after work. I'm not usually a night exerciser, but I do feel better at night, so it might be a necessary change. Yay for a successful experiment!

And now I am off to get ready for the weekend. I am working at my other job this weekend, which means that I need to get my stuff packed. Then I won't have to worry about packing after working out tonight. I am going to pack my yoga mat and Shred DVD, and hope that I get to do it. But I would also love to go for a walk. We'll see what I feel like doing tomorrow, I guess.

I hope you are all doing well, and looking forward to the weekend. Happy Friday!

Thursday, December 3, 2009

Do you know what feels incredible?

Moisturizing. You think I am kidding, but I am not. I have always dealt with dry skin, mostly on my feet and elbows. Not much of anywhere else though.

But this week, I discovered something terrible. You can get dry skin on your face!!! I have never ever had dry face skin. But now I do. It is terribly itchy and kind of rough and scaly. On my FACE!!! So I made a trip to Target and got me some facial moisturizer. I put it on as soon as I got in the car after buying it. Not only does it feel amazing, it smells pretty good too. And by that, I mean it smells a little like sunscreen, since it is SPF 15. And I do love the smell of sunscreen... it reminds me of the beach.

Anyway, so now in addition to slathering my body with lotion after showing, I am also slathering my face. I am sure my skin will thank me.

Thanks for the comments yesterday, friends. I am just going to take this one day at a time. My goal for this weekend is to exercise at least once. I will have a better chance of making this happen, since I won't be limited to exercising only in the morning. Once I hit the afternoon, I usually feel a lot better. I also might try using the gym at the Y tonight/tomorrow night. Just to see what it's like and if it works for me.

Wednesday, December 2, 2009

No news... is probably bad news.

Blahhhh. This week is no better than last week. I keep eating junk, and I don't want to, it just keeps happening. It's like I lost every ounce of self control. I hate it. I feel like it is slowly getting better, but it is going soooooo slowly.

I am going to bed at a normal time, and every morning I wake up hurting and exhausted. Which means I have not exercised more than once this week. I am seriously considering getting a personal trainer at the YMCA where I work. Not every day, not even once a week, but if I had a session or two, I think I could get the hang of it and get a routine going. Plus since I'm an employee, I get a discount, yay.

Every so often, in a mirror or a window, I see my reflection and can catch a glimpse of what I might look like when I lose more weight. Maybe it's something in my face, or the way my legs look, or maybe something different. But it is what keeps me going, when everything feels terrible, like it has recently.

Also, as far as feeling terrible goes, I am going to go see a doctor in January and talk about changing/adding onto my depression meds. I'm just not feeling great and I have no motivation whatsoever, which is not usually a problem for me. If I want to do something, I do it. But right now, I have the desire to be more active, but I simply can't do it. No matter how much I want to.

On a lighter note, I am glad that it is now the season to watch Christmas movies. I don't like much Christmas music, so I make do with watching lots of Christmas movies. Tonight it's While You Were Sleeping. Good times. =)