When I got home from church at 1 this afternoon, I was ready to eat. Anything. But I wasn't in particularly hungry - which of course has never stopped me in the past.
I was upset. I was working on processing my thoughts about the service this morning and how scarily it spoke directly to me at this point in my life. Normally, I would have raided the kitchen, felt guilty, and proceeded to have a terrible day.
But today, I started something different. The emotions that I was struggling with after church had nothing to do with food. They had everything to do with my spiritual growth. So instead of sitting down in front of 3 bowls of frosted flakes, I sat down in front my computer with my journal and my Bible right next to me.
And I started a new blog. I spent 2 hours (no joke!) writing my first post. It was really hard, processing those emotions, and I thought about quitting several times. But I got it all out, and I honest to goodness feel far better now. I am still emotional - which is okay, I am still processing. But I do not feel guilty, bloated, or sick. I do not feel like I ruined my day. I am actually feeling just a little healthier.
My relationship with God is a big part of my life, as is my participation in my church community. I know I don't talk about it much here, as it doesn't always play a big role in the "weight loss" part of my life. Today it kind of intersected though, and I am pleased with the resulting new blog.
If you are at all interested, feel free to check out Getting Wrecked. Follow if you dare - it will include a lot of emotions, and working through whatever I am learning about at services on Sundays and Wednesdays. I'd love to have any of you along on the journey!