I am supposed to start my official half marathon training tomorrow. Luckily Monday is stretch and strengthen day. I think I will go to work planning on working out, and if I feel really bad, I will just stretch. But I think I can handle a light warm up and weights. I guess I'll have to wait and see how it goes tomorrow. The rest of the week... I'm not going to push myself. The last thing I want to do is make myself feel worse when I am trying to recover. So it will be a lot of planning to do lower intensity workouts, and then listening to my body when I am doing them. I am very excited to officially start training!
In this journey to becoming healthier, I feel that I have working out pretty much under control. I love going to the gym both for cardio and for lifting. If I have to skip a day at the gym, I am not happy. In fact, I might even be cranky.
But I still struggle so much with eating. In my house, I live with three other girls. Each month, we put in $80 for groceries, and then spend $80 a week. We make meals together for dinner at least 3 nights a week. But we all just pick our own recipes, and unless I'm making the meal, I have no control over what it is or what the nutrition behind it is. Also two of the girls are vegetarians, and while I have no problem with that at all, I really want more meat in my diet.
Out of the four of us, I probably spend the most on extra groceries. I buy my own chicken, ground turkey, different bread, yogurt, frozen waffles, applesauce, rice cakes, etc. There is a lot that I eat out of the shared groceries - milk, juice, graham crackers, fruit, veggies, cereal, eggs, whatever anyone makes for dinner. But I don't eat the Nutella, or the ice cream, or any of the desserts that we buy or my housemates make. (Well, I did sometimes eat the cookies, but usually only a couple.)
The dilemma is that I am really wishing that I was just cooking for myself every night. Not that what my housemates cook isn't tasty, just that sometimes it is pretty high calorie or I don't even know the calories. If I could have chicken with veggies and rice every night, I would not mind that at all. And if this were the case, I would probably spend more of my own money on my own food, and put in less for community groceries. But I really don't think my housemates would go for that. I don't know. I'm just rambling now.
I just really want to get my eating under control. And it's hard when several times a week... I am not in control. What I would really like to do is to get a bunch of chicken cooked up on Sundays, so that during the week I can use it for salads, sandwiches, wraps, etc. Or cook my own dinners and keep them in the fridge/freezer and just heat them up and eat with my housemates, but eat my own food.
If any of you have suggestions, or have been in this situation before, please let me know what you think! I don't mind spending more on my own groceries so that I can have more control over what I eat. I think that is just what I am going to have to do.
Okay well, I am going to wrap this very long entry up. I have a lot of stuff to do today including:
-pick up my bridesmaid dress
-grocery shop, at least for my food
-cook some chicken
-clean/finish my laundry
-invent a new recipe to share with you