Looking back, I have not been perfect. It is true that I have not had any soda, though. Sometimes I would stand in front of the fridge at work for five or ten minutes at a time, debating with myself whether or not I should have a Diet Coke, but every single time, I decided not to. Wow, am I proud of that one year later.
I have had caffeine a couple times. The first time, I didn't mean to, and just forgot to say decaf when I was at Starbucks. The other time, a parent of one of the kids I work with brought us coffee and I knew there was caffeine, but drank one anyway. I did learn from these events. I learned that I really don't like or need the caffeine anymore. It made me completely wired both times, and I didn't really like how I felt. A year ago, that much caffeine would have been nothing to my body. Now, it makes me feel jittery and overexcited. I don't really need that in my life.
In the end, I am completely happy with my decision to give these things up. I probably won't have any more soda. The cravings for it still surface from time to time, but I hate to break a streak. Caffeine is a little harder to avoid, but I don't think I will have a problem there either. Most of my favorite drinks can be made decaf, and if I ever decide I want a chai tea latte, I will have it first thing in the morning so that I know I will be able to sleep at night. It's just not an important part of my life anymore, and I couldn't be more happy about that.
Lastly, executive decision time. I have been pretty much plateaued for over a month now, and it is really frustrating. I just started reading the Beck Diet Solution book and I am really getting into it. I think it will help me a lot, along with a couple other books that I have in my reading list. I am committing to doing the activities and exercises in this book.
But I think I need to take a couple weeks off from the scale. I am going to do two Fridays without a weigh in. I am just feeling a lot of internal pressure to weigh a certain amount, and I hate to be obsessed with it. So I am taking a break from weighing in. I am not taking a break from trying to eat healthy. I am still on a break from working out, which I HATE, but I am sick. I know that is a terrible excuse, considering that it is just a cold, but I just hurt all over and have zero energy. As soon as I feel even remotely better, do not fear, I will be hitting the gym oh so hard. (And I cannot wait for that day.)
So that is my life these days. Oh, and I thought of another New Year's Resolution: FINISH A BOOK!!!! I have started so many stories, and I have not finished one yet. I need to crack down on myself and start writing every day. Even if it is only one paragraph.