I have struggled with my weight my entire life. Well, maybe not in first grade... but pretty much everything after that. I had a lot of pride in the fact that most days, I could accept myself as I was. I could find things that I liked about my body. And then I read this line: "When I finally accepted myself, I accepted that I didn't want to be fat. And that was okay." (p. 51) (Like how I quote, like I'm still in college? Ha ha.)
But that quote really made me think. It stuck in the back of my head for the whole rest of the time I was reading. Maybe I haven't completely accepted myself. I don't want to be fat. But being a a fairly self confident, outgoing, independent person, it is really hard to admit that I could be wrong about something so huge.
Jennette, the writer of this book, lost 200 pounds over the course of two years. Now, I don't have 200 pounds to lose. But I do have at least 100. At my doctor's visit last week, I weighed 250.3. That's less than my highest, but still not anything to be proud of.
In the book, Jennette says that making the decision to lose weight is like making the decision to get married, or moving to another city. And I've spent the last couple days deciding that yes, I want to lose weight. Yes, I want to be healthier. Yes, I want to have more energy, and to get more exercise. So I'm committing. It's scary, I'm not going to lie. I know that I will have setbacks, and frustrations.
But I finally made the decision. And it's something I'm really excited about.